Quoting sara9683:

k, so all I've ever wanted was to find a guy, get married, and raise a family. I wanted to go to college and get an education (which I've got one more year left, woo hoo) as well, but I never wanted to have a "career." My major is Early Childhood, which I chose w/ the idea that the stuff I learn in that field will help me when I do become a mother one day. I'd also thought about doing a daycare from my home eventually as well, which is still something I'd like to do. However, I had really expected to be married by the time graduation rolled around. Yes, I still have a year left, but I don't see it happening. I don't really even know where to meet guys, since there are very few in my classes. And even guys that I do meet, none of them are interested in that way. In fact, most are already married or in serious relationships. I just don't understand why almost every single one of my friends has found someone, and I'm still very single. I understand that I don't need a guy to be happy, that I can live a rewarding life being who I am. But part of who I am just happens to be the "mothering" type. All my YW leaders told me I'd be a great mom some day. My nickname in HS from friends was "mom." As much as I love everyone else's kids, I'd like some of my own one day. I also understand I'm still very young and have plenty of time. But when I look at the fact that I've only really had like 2 dates since I turned 16, and that was 6 years ago...nothing's really improved since then, and hasn't really looked like it's going to. I'm just so afraid of it never working out for me. As for graduation creeping up, I have NO idea what to do afterwards, especially if I'm still as single then as I am now. Yes, I know this entry is all "woah is me" but some days, thinking about the future just scares me.

k, so all I've ever wanted was to find a guy, get married, and raise a family. I wanted to go to college and get an education (which I've got one more year left, woo hoo) as well, but I never wanted to have a "career." My major is Early Childhood, which I chose w/ the idea that the stuff I learn in that field will help me when I do become a mother one day. I'd also thought about doing a daycare from my home eventually as well, which is still something I'd like to do. However, I had really expected to be married by the time graduation rolled around. Yes, I still have a year left, but I don't see it happening. I don't really even know where to meet guys, since there are very few in my classes. And even guys that I do meet, none of them are interested in that way. In fact, most are already married or in serious relationships. I just don't understand why almost every single one of my friends has found someone, and I'm still very single. I understand that I don't need a guy to be happy, that I can live a rewarding life being who I am. But part of who I am just happens to be the "mothering" type. All my YW leaders told me I'd be a great mom some day. My nickname in HS from friends was "mom." As much as I love everyone else's kids, I'd like some of my own one day. I also understand I'm still very young and have plenty of time. But when I look at the fact that I've only really had like 2 dates since I turned 16, and that was 6 years ago...nothing's really improved since then, and hasn't really looked like it's going to. I'm just so afraid of it never working out for me. As for graduation creeping up, I have NO idea what to do afterwards, especially if I'm still as single then as I am now. Yes, I know this entry is all "woah is me" but some days, thinking about the future just scares me.